Cycles

As a child.

I’ve grown-up seeing my father abusing my mother. Still, I’d respected them for being my parents. Though, I hate my dad for treating my mom like that. And I hate my mom for allowing it to happen.

As a teenager.

I met a boy who taught me how it is to be loved. That love is different to every individual. I learned to forgive what my parents been through. The boy met another girl. And he chose her over me. I hate him for that.

As an adult.

I’ve been happily married for 5 years. Had a great time with kids on my side. Two years had past, the marriage was over. I hate myself for that.

16 thoughts on “Cycles

  1. Lucylu, you probably know it takes a lot of energy to hate and keep hating people who have wounded and/or rejected you; because of the closeness of the relationship that once was, a part of you feels lost it is like the other person has this power over you still, even if you don’t really talk anymore. I guess in getting some things out like you are doing you will find that people do care and everyone who does care prays for your healing so that you find God’s will for your life in a shining path that gets brighter every day for those redeemed of the Lord.

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  2. Listen to me Lucylu.. If you’re still breathing.. You haven’t seen your best yet. If you are still alive.. The last chapters of your life can be much much better than how the book began and how its been written. Life will get better just hang in there… Maybe there are other beautiful things you have that no one else can even imagine having..

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  3. Yes thank God I’m still breathing hehe… I’ve always been hopeful bout all the negative things that came my way, and I think thats my gift from God. Thanks jay for the sweet and encouraging words. Yes you’re right, not everyone knows that I’m into blogging and it’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve never imagined.

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  4. Don’t worry about life. Life is doing its job. Let it do what it is.. We should do what we need to.. Living is a lot more than pain and pleasure.. Living is about growth. The harder the circumstances the greater the growth. It’s just important to never lose faith. It will all mean something in the end.. We can’t tell now because we can’t see that far.. ๐Ÿ™‚ keep writing!

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  5. Hey Lucy, Iยดm with you. Always thinking it would be my fault. Always thinking my children missing her dad. Someday you will feel: all what you did was the best what you could did in every moment of your life. There are no mistakes. There are only experiences. ๐Ÿ˜‰

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