Happy Birthday

Nang araw na iyon

Minulat ko ang aking mga mata

Kasabay ng pagsikat ng araw

Sinimulan ko ang labahin

Kasabay ng pagdilig sa hardin

Sinimulan ko na rin ang pagluto ng Sinigang

Kasabay ng sinaing

Sinimulan ko na rin ang paglampaso sa sahig

Kasabay ng hiling na sana’y hindi na kita isipin

Nang araw na iyon

May nakalimutan pa ba ‘ko?

WALA na.

Kasi kahit birthday mo

Hindi ko magawang kalimutan.

Super Mom

“There will be so many times you feel like you failed. But in the eyes, ears, mind and heart of your child, you will always be the SUPERMOM.”

artwork of my 7-year-old daughter
artwork of my 7-year-old daughter

The best feeling

My migraine strikes again.

Two days of staying in bed all day and all night. Every food that touches my tongue down my stomach keep rushing back up. My head and body ached so bad, I thought I was going to die.

On the third day, I forced myself to get up. Eat a little bit to stay me up.

Then suddenly… Yes I think I’m back.

“The best feelings in your life come when you start feeling good after you’ve been feeling just awful.”

True for all crises—small and large.

Then I remembered a story about the guy who tried to commit suicide.

He’s on his 30’s, a harsh time. Everything on his plate seemed foul and rancid–job, marriage,career, friendship,family, life, and future.

Ironic that he was a volunteer at the time on a 24-hour answering service for a crisis center. Desperate people called in the middle of the night and said they were considering suicide. He resigned his post when he begin to think they were on the right track.

Getting dead began to seem like a good idea, he thought.

One morning—He just ran away from home. Got in his car, drove to the airport, and caught the next plane leaving. It was going to Texas, the place he had in mind, where he grew up. Probably the place he unconsciously wanted to be—back to the beginning— to complete the circle or find where things started going wrong–or something–he doesn’t know…”

Option#1 — He tried to buy a gun, but there was a waiting period if you were from out of state. So shooting himself was out. Which is OK because he didn’t really want to shoot himself and make a mess.

Option#2 — He looked for something to jump off of, but there wasn’t anyplace high enough in that part of Texas, and then there was the mess factor again.

Two days had gone by. While he was working out the technical problems of getting dead, he was driving around in a rented car looking at the scenery of his childhood.

Option#3 — He bought a vacuum-cleaner hose and some wide masking tape. That night he drove out in the plains for a couple of hundred miles turned off on a dirt road, and drove farther. He parked. Tried taping the hose to the exhaust pipe and then in through a wing window of the car.

“WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HIS MIND?”

He felt like a contest between three people.

One wanted to get it over with. Another seemed to think it was funny, and the third was obsessed with the taping problems.

The problem was that the hose was round and the exhaust pipe was oval, and he had to make the connection by using lots of tape.

It was funny. Too dumb to do something so simple. He was protected from himself by his own incompetence, he began to laugh. He couldn’t even kill himself. He laughed to the point of hysteria, turned into sobbing grief, which turned into silence broken by renewed laughter.

“Man too dumb to live–that’s him.”

But what if he succeeded?

He had the vision of his corpse sitting up at the wheel of this rented car out here in the bushes in the middle of nowhere–and the world going on without HIM—and it seemed like such a meaningless thing to do.

And he began to think of his ancestors—considering that he was alive now because a lot of men and women before him had been able to take whatever life threw at them and go on.

He began to laugh again. Death isn’t what he wanted. It wasn’t LESS life he wanted, but MORE life — life with MEANING.

And he never felt better in his life than at that moment.

from the book , MAYBE (MAYBE NOT)

“THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD COMES WHEN YOU START FEELING GOOD AGAIN AFTER YOU’VE BEEN FEELING AWFUL”

Image by Alexas_Fotos from Pixabay

50 random FACTS about ME

IT DOESN’T BOTHER ME THAT YOU TALK ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK.

WHAT BOTHERS ME IS YOU DON’T GET ALL YOUR FACTS RIGHT.

FOUR YEARS AGO, I CAME UP WITH THIS BLOG FOR THIS REASON;
It’s always been my passion to write something. And with the many things going on in my head, I feel that if it doesn’t come out it will be like a bomb that will ruin my sanity.

It’s about time to unveil what’s inside of me, to speak my mind and share my thoughts about everything. About Life… Death… And the Love in between.

https://lumibaochit.wordpress.com/2015/07/08/to-the-readers

AND AS TIME GOES BY, I FEEL LIKE I WANTED TO MAKE THIS SITE MORE PERSONAL.

IN THIS INTROSPECTION, THESE ARE 50 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

  1. I was born in the year of the Tiger and I’m a Sagittarius.

2. I don’t like the smell and taste of a vinegar.

3. I’m not good at sports, I did try when I was in college but I almost failed it.

4. In high school, my best friend and I exchanges answer sheets during exam. I answered Math and Science while she does the English and Filipino.

5. I don’t know how to apply make-up and I’m not interested either. But I admire those who can do it perfectly.

6. I am the middle child.

7. I am a cake and cat lover.

8. If given a chance to have a second course in college, I would love to study geography or history.

9. I rode a roller coaster twice, one in enchanted kingdom in Philippines and the other at Universal Studio in Singapore. And I will never do it again. But I have second thoughts on bungee jumping.

10. I’m not into rubber shoes, I love wearing sandals.

11. I love pampering myself by having a regular pedicures and manicures.

12. I almost completed the books written by my favorite author “Robert Fulghum” except for the 3 remaining books; True love, Words I wish I wrote and Third wish.

13. I like weird/nerd people.

14. Pizza and donuts can make my day.

15, I admit I’m boring, but don’t really care what others may say.

16. I can’t stand cold weather and cold shower.

17. I wish I can draw. But I can paint.

18. I don’t wear dark color clothes., except for pants.

19. I prefer shopping alone.

20. When I enter in a room, the first thing I will be looking for is the window.

21. Poetry is romantic

22. A 12-hour uninterrupted sleep is my remedy for my migraine.

23. I like X-MEN, Jet Li and “Dao Ming Si” Jerry Yan.

24. I believe in the supernaturals. I wish I could be a faith healer.

25. I like it when people remember my nickname, not my real name.

26. I am a hopeless romantic.

27. I did everything to win the heart of the boy I really liked when I was in high school. Yeah, I’m the one who courted him. And when I confessed it to my friends, no one believed me.

28. I love Liam Neeson.

29. Schindler’s list and The sixth sense are the movies that I’ll want to watch again and again.

30. I always like to challenge myself.

31. I love to sleep.

32. One of the article I wrote was published in a different language and gave me a copy of it.

33. I always believe in love, but not in marriage.

34. I’m blessed to be part of this : http://womenforone.com.pages.ontraport.net/top12stories

35. Coffee and milk tea please…

36. I like to watch movie with subtitles.

37. I don’t know if I can live without rice.

38. The best food l ever had was at the convent. No red meat. Only chicken, fish and vegetables.

39. Well, I’m good at writing love letters.

40. I have fears of stairs, particularly wooden stairs.

41. I don’t like chocolates.

42. I don’t have problem in sleeping, anywhere and whatever the position is.

43. I am both spiritual and religious.

44. I love to eat squash seeds, when I’m bored.

45. I like girls that have a boy’s name.

46. WATERMELON I loveeee…..

47. I only got ONE barbie doll in my entire life, then my daughters came and broke it.

48. I still have a picture of my ex (that is 27 years ago).

49. I am quiet and reserved. I am very “filipina”.

50. I rarely take pictures of myself but I love taking selfies with my kids.

Unfinished Manifesto

Creative writing is an art.

Being an artist is a way of life, not a job.

Do not write to make a living; write to make a living worthwhile.

Write to make sense of my life and then pass that long.

Write from having lived as wide, as deep, and as varied a life as possible.

Specialization is for insects.

Use both solitude and company. And remember that it is just as easy to fail at solitude as it is to fail at being a companion.

Creative writing is a moral, social act. Don’t lose sight of that.

Justice, mercy, love, and freedom are not the work of the gods or politicians, but the work of those who willingly risk seeing the world with open eyes —- who do not turn away, but address what they see.

from the book “What on earth have I done?”

Liebster Award

Don’t regret the things you don’t have control on.

Getting nominated is your labor.

Getting award is only a luck.

This is the first time I’ve nominated for the LIEBSTER Awards.

So, thank you so much to the most barbaric gentleman I’ve known in WP, Mr A. https://barbariangentlemen.wordpress.com, please do visit this site for some honest, vivacity, wit,  and get to know “what’s in the mind” of a real man.

So here are the rules:

  1. Acknowledge the blog that gave it to you and display the award
  2. Answer 11 questions that the blogger gives you
  3. Give 11 random facts about yourself
  4. Nominate 11 blogs and notify them of their nomination
  5. Give these blogs 11 questions to answer

“Sometimes the questions are complicated

and the answers are simple. “

– Dr. Seuss

So, here’s my answers to Mr. A. (this is the reason why joining a beauty pageant is not my thing hehehe).

  1. . Tell us about your idol, what you think makes them great. Then tell us about their flaws as a person, does that affect your view of them? Tell us why?

Not a fan of anyone. I like anything and anybody that finds me interesting or inspires me.

  • 2. Tell us 5 things that fully energizes you. Tell us why, and your plans so that you can spend more time with them?

(1)Writing and (2) reading. It satisfies me more than sex.

(3)Watching movies. I can watch 3 movies non-stop.

(4)Bath time is my ME time.

(5)And of course my kids.      

Time management is very important .

  • 3. Tell us 5 things that fully drains you. Tell us why, and your plans so that you can spend less time with them?

Don’t really know. Maybe stress, when something you hope for didn’t happen.

  • 4. Tell us about something about yourself that you blame others for? May it be a person, the economy, society, genes?

None. For me, if you blamed other people about the things that happened to you means you’re not being responsible for anything that you do.

  • 5. Have you ever imitated someone,  that you lost yourself in the process? Tell us about it.

None

  • 6. Do you have an exercise routine? Tell us why it works for you and how you manage it?

Sometime I have.

  • 7. Tell us your opinion on a thick bushy manly mustache, yay or nay?

Nay. It’s not romantic.

  • 8. What is your go-to dish to serve when you host dinner parties?

Pasta.

  • 9. Tell us about your professional career, its ups, and downs?

I was a travel agent professionally.  A lot of perks is at stake when you’re in the travel industry, which includes discounts from air fare, hotels and resorts not only for you but also for your family, and a lot of trainings that are recognized globally. The down part is you’re not the only one in the company so sometimes it will take a year or two before you can avail it. It’s a 24/7 work and stress until your client finally get back home.

10. It there any topic you wish to see on this blog or any suggestions for improvements?

None. I think it is perfect.

OOPS !! Oh my where’s the question #11??? I think I lost it. SORRY Mr. A

“I’m working ON myself, FOR myself, BY myself. “

I had so much fun doing this, I’m thinking of posting my own 100 facts hahaha…

1. LUCYLU is my pen name.

2.  I once appeared on television for children, Its called “BATIBOT”, when I was 8 years old together with my playmates in our neighborhood. We showed how to make a car toy made of empty can of sardines.

3. Entering the religious order to become a nun was the best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life. It gave me the freedom I never thought I’ve found.

4. I’m one of the luckiest people to experience “single life” to the fullest. I’d been  madly in love, dated a lot, drunk a lot, prayed a lot… got married and had my first child at 35.

5. I have a best friend even before I’d learned the ABC’s. We were classmates in grade school, middle school up to college. And  we’re still together on our first job.

6. I have fear of dead animals but not dead people.

7. I don’t iron my clothes. I buy fabrics/dresses that don’t need ironing.

8. I have Japanese ancestors on my father’s side.

9. A low maintenance woman –– that’s me!

10.I really love breakfast !

11. I don’t talk much but if you’re going to ask me, I’m not going to lie.

“Judge a man by his questions rather than his answers.”
Voltaire

So here are my questions for my nominees :

  1. Who is your animated hero? And why?
  2. What makes you smile?
  3.  How many pillows do you sleep with?
  4.  What’s your favorite holiday?
  5. Are you a clean or messy person?
  6. Have you tried to ride a roller coaster?
  7. What’s something I would never guess about you?
  8. If you were given a chance to choose a natural power, what would it be?
  9. Have you ever worn clothing with the labels/tags still attached?
  10. If you were a boy/girl even for a day, what would be the first thing you do?
  11. Who would you like to sit next to on a 10-hour flight and why

“Your hard work and passion for perfection alone have placed you here.” CONGRATULATIONS !!!

My nominees are :

  1. https://mylilplace.com
  2. https://enigmadebunked.home.blog
  3. https://quotes.instaviral.pw
  4. https://theartofoverthinking.com
  5. https://nishantgang.com
  6. https://kavya-sharma.com
  7. https://ailishsinclair.com
  8. https://thewordsmerized.wordpress.com
  9. https://thebluestockingwannabe.wordpress.com
  10. https://patrickrealstories.wordpress.com
  11. https://starrfairy.wordpress.com

All the best to all the nominees ! Have fun guys !