HOW DO I LOVE THEE?… (a letter to a sister with Global Development Delay)

Dear sister,

What happened to us? …

When we were kids, I thought we were twins.

Because we always had the same dress, sewed by our mother. Wherever I went, you had to go with me; playing outside, eating, taking a bath, watching TV and so on. Whenever we had a party or there’s an event in the house, mom would not let me help her with the chores. She would always tell me, “stay with your sister and that would be enough”. We were inseparable back then.

I grew up looking after you like I had to do for myself. It’s like I had two selves since we only had a two-years age gap. Being with you was like being alone with myself. So I had a lot of time to read books, watch movies and try writing.

Mother said you had your separate world, and if someone wanted to understand you, they must enter into your world. And so I did.

At an early age, I learned how to train a one-year-old child to use a spoon and fork when eating, to use the toilet when nature called, to get dressed, to combed hair after every shower, to sit properly.

You were that one-year-old.

I learned how to be responsible for other people because of you. You taught me how to take care of others without expecting something in return. You taught me to be patient, to be sensitive to other people’s need, to control my emotions, to always think ten times before doing something stupid. You taught me to be perfect, or at least act perfectly.

I think you’re lucky to have us, as a family. Aside from our parents, you have six sisters and brothers to look after you. It’s a good thing also that you’re the fifth child to be born out of seven children. At 41 years old, you are still our baby.

And so I thought.

For the last 6 months, you’ve had an ear infection that caused your head to develop sores and made you completely lose your hair. The regular visits to hospitals, which give you stress and fear, that worsened your condition, have not been easy.

These things are all new to you, and to us, too. We never thought this would come.

HOW DO WE LOVE THEE?

Are you really lucky to have us?

We isolated you from the world we lived in. None of us took the initiative to put in school, to be trained by professionals or medical experts regarding your condition. We took your freedom to lived a normal life, or at least learned how to take care of yourself, to freely expressed what you wanted.

If only we had known how to love you.

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The yellow sponge

He’s the yellow sponge you can’t find in my kitchen

He’s the kind of employee every employer wants

He’s the only perfect friend made for Patrick

He can annoy the mean people with his happiness

While

He spends more time with my daughters than their father

He brings my daughters a good laugh

And

He inspires me on how he sees things.

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Pre-schooler

It’s the first day in school, my 4-years old daughter was excited while I was not sure what’s going to happen.

So, I decided to stay in school just in case something might not work out right. And at last, after 3 hours there she was smiling.

Mom : How’s your first day ?

Daughter : It’s okay,  mom.

Mom, did you stayed in school?

Mom : Yes.

Daughter : You didn’t leave me?

Mom : Yes.

Daughter : Why?

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Once in a while

Once in a while

I  close the umbrella and

feel the rain pours down

on me.

 

Once in a while

I take off my hat and

let the ray of the sun

warms me.

 

Once in a while

I let the pain remain

Just to be with you

Again…

 

 

 

 

 

LoVe and LuSt

I believe in both

love and lust

They’re both overrated

They’re used to define a feelings

They’re used to find fault

Sometimes, love starts with lust

And sometimes too, lust begin with love

Don’t be confused on

love and lust

Do get confused on your

needs and wants…

 

 

 

 

On Gender Equality

One time, I overheard my eldest daughter (8 yrs old) and her father talking. They’re both watching local news on TV.

Daughter : Dad, why do girls have to change their last name when they get married?

Dad : It’s the law.

Daughter : If ever I would become a president, I would change that.

Dad : Huh, why?

Daughter : Because it’s unfair. 

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Musing : My life as a whole

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My life as a whole is a DREAM COME TRUE.

My first dream was to become a nun.

I entered the convent at aged 30, but got out after 2 years.

My life as a whole is an ADVENTURE.

A once in a lifetime experienced with the local tribe of Mindoro, knowing their culture and traditions in the mountain for a month. A life without electricity, an overflowing supply of water, and you can touch the sky by raising up your hands.

My life as a whole is MAGICAL.

Being love and be loved in return with the man of my dreams.  Though, people does really change.

My life as a whole is a MYSTERY.

Who would have thought that I will be reconnected with my first love after 25 years. The man that I thought was disappeared on this earth, came back to life to process forgiveness and finally to forget.

My life as a whole is UNPREDICTABLE.

I guess, It would not become a “life” if I knew what will going to happen.

And sometimes, I thank GOD for what went wrong.