Once in a while

Once in a while

I  close the umbrella and

feel the rain pours down

on me.

 

Once in a while

I take off my hat and

let the ray of the sun

warms me.

 

Once in a while

I let the pain remain

Just to be with you

Again…

 

 

 

 

 

This is NOT a love story

We were neighbors

School mates in our younger years

I’ve had been one of the boys

A cousin of yours and your best friend once dated me

I had seen into your eyes

That you wanted me too

You’d just didn’t said a word.

 

Four years had passed

You confessed your feelings

And said “I love you”

The morning came

You were gone

Without saying a word.

 

I’ve moved on

You’d moved on

Then we meet again

We reconnect

We shared intimate moments

Me, as a single

You, as a married man

Before the night had ended

Without saying a word

I’m gone.

 

I’ve moved on

You’d moved on

Then we meet again

You, as a divorcee

Me, as a married woman

Without saying a word

We were just neighbors.

 

A promise

The world will change.

Our situation might change.

The distance between us could be far and long

People will against us or not.

Destiny might agree with us or not.

Whether you like it or not, believe it or not.

This is what I feel, I say and I do;

“I will love you always, no matter what”.

Fairytale

I wish I am a princess...sleeping
   waiting for a kiss from a prince to wake me up
Instead of waking up by the loud voice of my mother .

I wish I am a princess...getting ready for the ball
   with a beautiful ballgown and a glass slipper
Instead of wearing an old fashioned dress and a rubber slipper.

I wish I am a princess...with a golden long hair
    letting it down will appear my prince
Instead of letting down my hair appear a silver gray hair. 

I wish I am a princess...with a beautiful singing voice
     can walked on land for the sake of love
Instead of seeing the man I loved walking  away from me.

I wish I am a princess...
      waiting for a prince to rescue me.

But I am not a princess
   And my life is not a fairytale.

i saw you

i saw you

the other day

in the mall

while crossing the street

while talking to a friend

while taking a walk in the park

while driving to a distance

while drinking my coffee

while reading my novel

while observing the neighborhood

while looking at the window

while watching my fave game…

i saw you

NO !

my heart did see you

Because she’s longing for you.

What Now?

You were called “Mr. Gentleman”

The new boy in senior high

The boy with a “chinito” eyes and perfect smile

Who wouldn’t noticed you?

You, who  had been an excellent student

You, whom I admired from a distance

You, whom I dreamed of day and night

Lucky I was, you noticed me too

The girl with a flat-chested breast

You even want me to be your girl

And yes, I want you too so badly

But fate disagreed with us

I lost you for a while, I thought

But two decades had passed

You came back

Not for love, but for friendship

Of course, how could I?

You have a wife and a kids

I have a husband and a kids, too

You are happy, I know

I am happy, I guess

So, what now?

 

 

Without you

Without you, I am okay
Without you, I am good
Without you, I am great

Me, being okay doesn't mean I am completely okay without you
Me, being good doesn't mean I am not experiencing bad things without you
Me, being great doesn't mean I am not at lost without you
 
This is just me, without you.

The couple

I once knew a young couple
Married because of a coming child
Not minding if they really knew each other
They usually seen
Fighting day in, day out
Thinking that was a normal things young couples do

Two decades have passed

I once knew an older couple
Still married for the same reason
Still fighting day in , day out
Still thought that was a normal things older couples do 

Two weeks ago

I once knew a couple
Escaping the normal things they thought
The wife took her own life
A week after
The husband took his own life too

The Afterlife

I once knew a couple
Still married for the same reason?
Still fighting day in, day out?
Still thought that was a normal things couples do?...

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.

– Norman Cousins-

***based on a true story

Loving you

It’s the season of love

I want to feel it

With you by my side

I think I have so much to give

But you’re nowhere to be found

I felt so much

That I started to feel nothing

Now, I’m not sure

Am I better or just bitter?