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“There are NO STRANGERS Here; Only FRIENDS you haven’t yet met.”
– William Butler Yeats –

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE !!!!


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You’re my #1

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She’s a teenage kid who has just had a baby in the back stall of a barn, with some confusion about just who the father is. Her husband is muttering about taxes and the fact that the head honcho in these parts, Herod, has opted for infanticide. And if that’s not enough, there’s all this traffic of visiting astrologers, sheep ranchers, and angels, who keep dropping by with questions and proclamations and chorales. To top it off, the animals who are jammed in there with her “talk”. It certainly would give a person something to do some heavy thinking about.

I’d say “ponder” is the perfect word for what Mary was doing.

– Robert Fulghum from the book,  It was on fire when I lay down on it –

And me too, I ponder.

Like today, the feast of Mary’s nativity.

She’s not here to replace God, or her son, Jesus.

She’s the perfect example that humans can be perfect, too.

She was used as a instrument to fulfilled God’s divine will.

And to prove that EVERYTHING with GOD is POSSIBLE.

Mary

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Dear sister,

What happened to us? …

When we were kids, I thought we were twins.

Because we always had the same dress, sewed by our mother. Wherever I went, you had to go with me; playing outside, eating, taking a bath, watching TV and so on. Whenever we had a party or there’s an event in the house, mother would not let me help her in the chores. She would always tell me, “stay with your sister and that would be enough”. We were inseparable back then.

I grew-up looking after you like I had to do for my own self. It’s like I had two selves, since we only had two-years age gap. Being with you was like being alone with myself. So I had a lot of time to read books, watch movies and try writing.

Mother said you had your own separate world,  and if someone wanted to understand you, they must enter into your world. And so I did.

At the early age, I learned how to train a one-year-old child to use spoon and fork when eating, to use the toilet when nature called, to get dressed, to combed hair after every shower, to sit properly.

You were that one-year-old.

I learned how to be responsible for other people because of you. You taught me how to take care of others without expecting something in return. You taught me to be patient, to be sensitive to other people’s need, to control my emotions, to always think ten times before doing something stupid. You taught me to be perfect, or at least act perfectly.

I think you’re lucky to have us, as a family. Aside from our parents, you have six sisters and brothers to look after you. It’s a good thing also that you’re the fifth child to be born out of seven children. At 41 years old, you are still our baby.

And so I thought.

For the last 6 months, you’ve had an ear infection that caused your head to develop sores and made you completely lose your hair. The regular visits to hospitals, which give you stress and fear, that worsened your condition, have not been easy.

These things are all new to you, and to us, too. We never thought this would come.

HOW DO WE LOVE THEE?

Are you really lucky to have us?

We isolated you from the world we lived in. None of us took the initiative to put in school, to be trained by professionals or medical experts regarding your condition. We took your freedom to lived a normal life, or at least learned how to take care of yourself, to freely expressed what you wanted.

If only we had known  how to loved you.

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HOW DO I LOVE THEE?… (a letter to a sister with Global Development Delay)

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He’s the yellow sponge you can’t find in my kitchen

He’s the kind of employee every employer wants

He’s the only perfect friend made for Patrick

He can annoy the mean people with his happiness

While

He spends more time with my daughters than their father

He brings my daughters a good laugh

And

He inspires me on how he sees things.

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The yellow sponge

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It’s the first day in school, my 4-years old daughter was excited while I was not sure what’s going to happen.

So, I decided to stay in school just in case something might not work out right. And at last, after 3 hours there she was smiling.

Mom : How’s your first day ?

Daughter : It’s okay,  mom.

Mom, did you stayed in school?

Mom : Yes.

Daughter : You didn’t leave me?

Mom : Yes.

Daughter : Why?

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Pre-schooler

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Once in a while

I  close the umbrella and

feel the rain pours down

on me.

 

Once in a while

I take off my hat and

let the ray of the sun

warms me.

 

Once in a while

I let the pain remain

Just to be with you

Again…

 

 

 

 

 

Once in a while

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I believe in both

love and lust

They’re both overrated

They’re used to define a feelings

They’re used to find fault

Sometimes, love starts with lust

And sometimes too, lust begin with love

Don’t be confused on

love and lust

Do get confused on your

needs and wants…

 

 

 

 

LoVe and LuSt

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I know who you are.

I want to apologized and at the same time, I want to thank you for bringing out the best and the worst in me.

What is meant to be will always find its way, not too early nor too late.

Always on time.

Someday, when I looked back on this I know it will bring smile to my face because it happened.

As for now, I wish you….never existed.

 

 

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My life as a whole is a DREAM COME TRUE.

My first dream was to become a nun.

I entered the convent at aged 30, but got out after 2 years.

My life as a whole is an ADVENTURE.

A once in a lifetime experienced with the local tribe of Mindoro, knowing their culture and traditions in the mountain for a month. A life without electricity, an overflowing supply of water, and you can touch the sky by raising up your hands.

My life as a whole is MAGICAL.

Being love and be loved in return with the man of my dreams.  Though, people does really change.

My life as a whole is a MYSTERY.

Who would have thought that I will be reconnected with my first love after 25 years. The man that I thought was disappeared on this earth, came back to life to process forgiveness and finally to forget.

My life as a whole is UNPREDICTABLE.

I guess, It would not become a “life” if I knew what will going to happen.

And sometimes, I thank GOD for what went wrong.

 

 

Musing : My life as a whole

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We were neighbors

School mates in our younger years

I’ve had been one of the boys

A cousin of yours and your best friend once dated me

I had seen into your eyes

That you wanted me too

You’d just didn’t said a word.

 

Four years had passed

You confessed your feelings

And said “I love you”

The morning came

You were gone

Without saying a word.

 

I’ve moved on

You’d moved on

Then we meet again

We reconnect

We shared intimate moments

Me, as a single

You, as a married man

Before the night had ended

Without saying a word

I’m gone.

 

I’ve moved on

You’d moved on

Then we meet again

You, as a divorcee

Me, as a married woman

Without saying a word

We were just neighbors.

 

This is NOT a love story

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“Kids have to exposed to different things in order to develop. A child is not going to find out he likes to play a musical instruments if you never exposed him to…”

– Dr. Temple Grandin

Writings of my daughter, aged 8.

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Like mother, like daughter

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There you are again

Always on time

Never miss a day

With your warm greetings

With your contagious smile

With your sincere eyes

With your neatly ironed clothes

Asking what I want

Serving my favorite tea

Of course

Because you’re the waiter from the cafe.

Dating

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Last night, while doing the dishes my 4 years old daughter was talking to me.

Daughter : Mom, was dad just sleeping over with us?

Me : Why do you ask?

Daughter : Because you already drove him away from our house. He just here because he misses us, his daughters.

Me : (Speechless)….

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The world will change.

Our situation might change.

The distance between us could be far and long

People will against us or not.

Destiny might agree with us or not.

Whether you like it or not, believe it or not.

This is what I feel, I say and I do;

“I will love you always, no matter what”.

A promise

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“People think the things they want to say and do.

But they say the words they didn’t mean,

 And do the things they don’t want to do.”

 

#Filter

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I wish I am a princess...sleeping
   waiting for a kiss from a prince to wake me up
Instead of waking up by the loud voice of my mother .

I wish I am a princess...getting ready for the ball
   with a beautiful ballgown and a glass slipper
Instead of wearing an old fashioned dress and a rubber slipper.

I wish I am a princess...with a golden long hair
    letting it down will appear my prince
Instead of letting down my hair appear a silver gray hair. 

I wish I am a princess...with a beautiful singing voice
     can walked on land for the sake of love
Instead of seeing the man I loved walking  away from me.

I wish I am a princess...
      waiting for a prince to rescue me.

But I am not a princess
   And my life is not a fairytale.

Fairytale

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I was surprise when I received a tag from Jay Kaushal. Whom I admired for his poetry and  philosophical thoughts.

It’s so ironic that in one of my previous post I mentioned that I’m not good at answering questions, but I guess there’s no harm in trying for noticing and getting to know more of myself.

So the idea behind the TMI tag is Too Much Information.

What are you currently wearing?

mint green sleeveless blouse, blue mini-shirt, rainbow colors slipper and maroon eyeglass

Have you ever been in love?

yeah

Have you ever had a terrible breakup?

yes

How old are you?

42

How tall are you?

5 flat

How much do you weigh?

45 kgs

Do you have any piercings?

Nope, but it came to my mind that it would be cool to have it.

What’s your favourite drink?

coffee and winter melon milk tea.

What’s you favourite song?

‘Your Song” by Elton John

What’s your zodiac sign?

Sagittarius

How long does it take you to shower?

15 mins minimum. When I was in the convent, I took 5 mins maximum for my shower.

What’s your favourite show?

ALLY MCBEAL. It’s also the reason why I named my first child ALI.

What’s your favourite band?

The Script

Something you really miss?

Dating. The feeling when a man make you feel loved.

Where do you go when you’re sad?

at the church.

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

Just a minute to fix myself, the problem would be waking up. lol.

Have you ever been in a physical fight?

Never. I would not waste a minute thinking bout it.

What turns you on?

Artist or someone who can appreciate arts.

What turns you off?

Inconsiderate to other people and to nature

Qualities you look for in a partner?

Faithful

What’s your favourite colour?

Blue

Loud music or soft?

It depends on my mood.

Favourite quote?

“Even the falling leaves has its reason”

Favourite actor?

Liam Neeson

Do you have any fears?

Yes

What’s the last thing that made you cry?

I’m the type of person who cries easily, can’t remember the last time I cried hehe. But I still remember the time I cried so hard and eventually fell sleep from crying. When I watched the movie of Tom Hanks  “Cast Away”, that I never want to watch it again cause I fear that I might cry again that hard.

Last time you said you loved someone?

A minute ago, to one of my daughters. She came to me and said “Ma I love you”.

Last book you read?

Oh gosh been a while, I can’t remember.

The book you’re currently reading?

None as of now, I guess it’s so hard to find a good book today.

Last show you watched?

“BLACK” is a korean drama series with 18 episodes. I watched the full series in 3 consecutive nights. Well, Filipinos are well-known korean-drama fanatics. But none can compare to taiwanese show “Meteor Garden”.

Last place you were?

In the four corners of my room

Last sport you played?

I’m not into sports, but I love to swim.

Who’s the last person you talked to?

Alecs, my second child.

The last song you sang?

“Morning, noon and night time” by jane olivar

Favourite chat up line?

Whatsup?

Do you have a crush?

None

The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

Friend

Favourite food?

Veggies and fish, less salt and oil

Place you want to visit?

Iceland, one of the happiest country to live in the world.

http://happinessaroundtheglobe.com/8-facts-on-iceland/

  • Per capita Iceland has the highest number of book and magazine publications and 10% of the country’s population will publish a book in their lifetimes.
  • Babies in Iceland are routinely left outside to nap while mom’s and dads catch up with their friends inside a bar.

 

What’s the last time you kissed someone?

Can’t remember

Last time you were insulted?

I never entertain insults.

Favourite sweet?

Any kind of cake less sweet

What instruments do you play?

I wish I can play any kind of instruments, but on my mother’s genes they’re all musicians.

Favourite piece of jewellery?

I think they don’t like me, cause if I have one it will eventually get lost

Last time you hung out with anyone?

last two weeks, with high school friends

So, that was it!

Hope my fellow bloggers that I will tag will continue tagging others…HAVE FUN GUYS !

What to do if you’re tagged? Mention the person who tagged you, Answer the questions from above and let the people who you have tagged know, by commenting on their post.

TMI Tag – Too Much Info about me!!

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 “funny how a beautiful song could tell such a sad story”
― Sarah DessenLock and Key

Early morning sunshine
Pushing soft against my hair
Wondrin’ what you’re doin’
Thinking what you’re gonna wear
Happy kind of sad
I’m on my way
To start the day

[Chorus:]
Morning noon and nighttime I still think of you
Morning noon and nighttime wanna be with you
Morning noon and nighttime you are always on my mind

Sippin’ at my coffee
In the middle of the day
Wondering what you’re doing
Wondering why you went away
Happy kind of sad
I’m on my way
To start the day

Morning, noon and night time

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i saw you

the other day

in the mall

while crossing the street

while talking to a friend

while taking a walk in the park

while driving to a distance

while drinking my coffee

while reading my novel

while observing the neighborhood

while looking at the window

while watching my fave game…

i saw you

NO !

my heart did see you

Because she’s longing for you.

i saw you

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Oh It’s the last day of the challenge !

I felt a little bit of something

I don’t know

I’m not sure

It felt like this…

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And by the way

I’m a BIG fan of this song lyrics

That I made a post of this 2 years ago

What is Loneliness?

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Always hoping for this one

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Thank you sooooo much 1kindness2day !!!

And here’s my list of nominees :

 

To participate, you had to:

– thank the nominator
– post one quote each day for three consecutive days
– nominate three bloggers each day to continue the challenge

Day #3 – Three Days,Three Quotes Challenge

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Don’t blame the mirror

If you don’t like what you see

Don’t blame the kids

If your belly has a scar

Don’t blame the mistress

If your marriage is in trouble

Don’t blame fate

If your future is uncertain

Start to fix yourself

And be responsible for it.

Blame

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I’ll starting the 1st day of the month right by accepting a challenge given to me by the very kindhearted blogger 1kindness2day

I  can’t help it but to say YES to this challenge.

This quotes always reminds me that everything has its own reason, even the falling of the leaves…

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To participate, I had to:

– thank the nominator
– post one quote each day for three consecutive days
– nominate three bloggers each day to continue the challenge

So I’ll be nominating :

Day #1 – Three Days,Three Quotes Challenge

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(After a couple of months, finally he had the courage to tell me the truth)

He said :  “I’d changed. It was my fault. There is someone else.”

She said : “I apologize, I should have given you what you deserve.”

He said : “No! You have given me so much.”

She said : “That’s the point! I should given you what you only deserved!”

He said, She said #3

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(The confrontation when you got back and breaking up again to an ex-lover)

He said :  “To tell you frankly, I ‘d cried like a baby when you left me.”

She said :  “Cried like a baby???… I died when you left me!”

He said, She said 

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I can't live alone.

I repeat.

I CAN'T LIVE ALONE.

Having relationship have always been part of me.

I have a relationship with my bed.
The way it comforts me, soothe away my tiredness
It knows my fears and dreams
And it even kept secrets too.

I have a relationship with the sun.
But I think it was too perfect for me
Sometimes I thought bout the moon, the rain and the stars too

I have a relationship with the ONE
Though he was got away somehow
He still lives inside me

I have a relationship with my writings
It satisfies my need
Like having an intimate moment with a man

I wonder now
What would have been if I had a relationship with a real man
If there is such a thing.

 

My Affairs

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  I asked God,

          “Why are you taking me through troubled waters?”

He replied, “Because your enemies can’t swim.”

Holy Tuesday

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“Can you imagine a life with no fear?

What if faith, not fear, was your default reaction to threats?”

-Max Lucado –

Holy Monday

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Wondering About…

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“Don’t be easy to define. Let Them WONDER about you.”  Author : Allysa

I wonder about MARY, the blessed mother of Jesus. Her thoughts about her teenage pregnancy. And her fiance, Joseph, who has nothing to do about it.

About the guy who first held my hands when I was 15. And assumed by my mom as the father of her would-be grandchild just because she saw me vomiting one morning, even if she knew it was caused by a sore throat. The same guy who has nothing to do about it.

I wonder about the LAMPLIGHTER of “The little Prince” by Antoine De Saint-Exupery. His thoughts on his terrible profession. He just had to follow orders and there is nothing to understand. The one thing he loves in life is to sleep.

About the saleslady I saw every day at the train station on my way to work, complaining about her whole day job, overworked and underpaid. And still thinking of something else besides herself. I bet, the one thing she wants in life is to sleep, same with me.

I wonder about CINDERELLA, marrying the man she knew for one night. The fairy tale who taught us to believe that dreams do come true. What is her dream again?

About the man I married, I know I drive him crazy sometimes. He’s not easy to live with either.

I wonder about the SONGWRITER of “The man who can’t be moved” by the script. His thoughts and inspiration while writing every line of the song. Anyway, if he is the man; I’m the girl who can’t be moved.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

God,
I have a problem.
I’m just a man and I’m feeling so alone.
I know you have no name, but I need to call you something.
I know you are not a man like me, but I need to think of you that way.
I know you are everywhere, but I need to talk to you somewhere.
I know you are eternal, but I need you now.
God, forgive my limitations, and help me.
Amen.

  • From the book “From the beginning to end”

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